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Post by me08 on Sept 20, 2008 14:06:36 GMT -5
 I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
Jacelynn was walking through the woods, humming under her breath. It was a nice night out. She was glad, but surprised that she hadn't seen anyone else around. She spotted a rock nearby and sat on it, stretching her legs out so they stuck out into the walking trail. She wasn't worried about tripping someone, because she didn't hear anyone else around. Even if someone happened to be there and trip...well they should have been watching. Jac sang softly as she sat there, leaning up against the tree that was right beside her rock. Camp had just started, and she'd not seen any of her very few friends yet. She didn't let it bother her, though; she knew that all her friends had lots of other friends. So, they were all pretty busy. She'd been sitting there for a few minutes, singing softly to herself when she felt someone trip over her legs. She looked over at the person with a bemused expression on her face. "Fall here often?" she asked, not even knowing who the person was. |
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Post by axelj on Sept 20, 2008 17:08:08 GMT -5
 "Nimm meine Hand,
wir fangen nochmal an.
Spring nicht.
Ich schrei in die Nacht für Dich,
lass mich nicht im Stich
Spring nicht"
Axel was bored and it was a lovely night, so he decided to go for a walk. He ended up walking on one of the many trails in the forest. He was walking along, not really watching where he was going. He was lost in his thoughts again. He seemed to be doing that quite often since returning to camp. He'd been walking for a little while, when all of a sudden he tripped over something that had been laying on the ground. He then heard a familiar voice say, "Fall here often?" He stood up, brushing himself off and said, "Hi, Jacelynn. Glad to be back at camp?" This girl confused him like no other. The previous years at camp that he'd been there, he'd tried to be her friend but she wouldn't really let him in. He hoped that things might be different that year. |
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Post by me08 on Sept 20, 2008 19:28:17 GMT -5
I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
Jac rolled her eyes when she saw it was Axel that she had tripped. "Oh, it's you, I'm not sorry at all then," she said. She pulled her knees in to her chest, wrapping her arms around them. "And, yes, I am, actually." She was always glad to be back at camp. It took her away from people she didn't like. Since running into Axel her first year at camp, she'd seen him around a lot. She'd talk to him a few times; but, she never got close to him. She'd not really gotten close to anyone at camp. She has one or two people she considers friends, but that's about it. For some reason, she was slightly apprehensive about letting Axel become her friend. Maybe it had to do with the way her stomach would tighten whenever he was around...or that just seeing him made her want to smile (though she didn't). |
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Post by axelj on Sept 20, 2008 21:34:21 GMT -5
"Nimm meine Hand,
wir fangen nochmal an.
Spring nicht.
Ich schrei in die Nacht für Dich,
lass mich nicht im Stich
Spring nicht"
Axel frowned slightly at her cold tone of voice. At the end of last year, he had her at least talking friendly with him. He didn't get it at all. She was a really great person, and he knew they could get along. She just seemed to not want to get along with him. He went over and sat on a rock next to hers, not caring what she'd say about him staying. He smiled warmly at her, hoping that this summer things would be different. "Did you do anything fun over the school term?" he asked, wanting to try to get her to talk to him...at least in the way she had the summer before. He hated that no matter what he seemed to do, and no matter how much they had in common, she just seemed to block him out. |
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Post by me08 on Sept 20, 2008 23:54:37 GMT -5
I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
Once more, Jac rolled her eyes at the dark haired boy. "Oh, yeah, because being surrounded by people I hate is so much fun," she replied before resting her chin on her knees. She turned her head so that she was looking at him. He was really cute and really nice. She knew he could be funny and sweet. He was friends with a lot of people in camp, she'd seen him talking and laughing with them. Yet, every time he tried to get close to her, a big yellow flag would go up screaming 'DANGER'! Somewhere, deep inside, was the answer but she didn't want to admit it. It was because she liked him and she was scared of being hurt. Because if she liked him and she let herself like him, he would be able to hurt her more than anyone else. |
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Post by axelj on Sept 21, 2008 0:22:40 GMT -5
"Nimm meine Hand,
wir fangen nochmal an.
Spring nicht.
Ich schrei in die Nacht für Dich,
lass mich nicht im Stich
Spring nicht"
Axel sighed when she rolled her eyes and replied cooly again. He stood up and said, "Look, as fun as it is talking with you; I'd rather talk to someone who isn't so hostile." He was really upset that she wouldn't just talk to him. She had to be snappy and sarcastic. Sure, sarcasm can be funny; but, used like she was, it wasn't. "If you ever want to talk and not be so...well, you, let me know." He was really tired of her attitude, and just didn't have the patients to deal with it then. |
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Post by me08 on Sept 21, 2008 0:38:52 GMT -5
I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
As soon as Axel started to leave, Jac said, "Wait!" shocking herself. She sighed and lifted up her head. "I'm sorry it's just..." Jac trailed off, not knowing what to say. She couldn't very well come out and say 'it's just that I like you and it terrifies me'. She sighed again before saying, "I don't mean to be so...cold...well, okay, maybe I mean to; but, it's just how I react to people. I don't make friends easily, and I don't talk well with others. I haven't for a few years now, since--" She stared down at her knees. She just told him more in two minutes than she'd told him in the past two years. Usually when they talked it was small talk, the whole 'hi' 'how are you' thing. |
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Post by axelj on Sept 21, 2008 0:56:50 GMT -5
"Nimm meine Hand,
wir fangen nochmal an.
Spring nicht.
Ich schrei in die Nacht für Dich,
lass mich nicht im Stich
Spring nicht"
Axel stopped walking and turned to face her when she told him to wait. Then, when she started speaking more, he sat back down on the rock next to hers. When she finished speaking he smiled slightly. That was the most she had said to him without a harsh word or tone of voice. "Well," he said, "I don't know who hurt you so much that you feel you've got to block out the world; but, I don't think that I'd ever do that. I hate upsetting people. I'd rather make them smile or laugh." He didn't know if what he said reassured her any, but he really had no intentions of hurting her. He stood up in front of her. "Why don't we start this over?" He held out his hand with a smile and said, "Hi, I'm Axel." |
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Post by me08 on Sept 21, 2008 1:07:21 GMT -5
I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
Jac giggled a little when Axel stuck out his hand and introduced himself. She shook her head slightly before grasping his hand and saying, "I'm Jac." She smiled at him, for the first time in her memory. That annoying little voice in her head kept yelling for her to stop, to not trust him. But, something else made her want to trust him. This boy confused her like no other. There was something about him that just constantly made her want to smile and hug him. That same part made her feel like she'd known him for a long time. Then, there was still that other part, the one shouting how much he could hurt her. She didn't know which part to listen to, which one she wanted to listen to. She was so very confused. She needed a friend to talk to, and soon. |
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Post by axelj on Sept 21, 2008 1:47:17 GMT -5
"Nimm meine Hand,
wir fangen nochmal an.
Spring nicht.
Ich schrei in die Nacht für Dich,
lass mich nicht im Stich
Spring nicht"
Axel gently pulled on Jac's hand until she stood up. "Come on, lets walk," he said with a bright smile. He really didn't feel like just sitting around, but now that Jac was talking nicely to him, he didn't want to stap talking with her. He had always liked being around her, even when she didn't seem to want him around. She confused Axel in such a way it made him more drawn to her. She was a riddle, that was for sure. Axel wanted to know her more. There was an attraction there, one that Axel found very difficult to ignore. He knew it shouldn't be there since he barely knew her; but, he'd always wanted to know Jac and to have her like him. |
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Post by me08 on Sept 21, 2008 2:02:22 GMT -5
I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
Jac reluctantly stood when Axel gently pulled on her arm. He suggested that they walk, and she shrugged. She was painfully aware of the fact that as they started walking, he hadn't let go of her hand. She gently pulled her hand away, being nervous about letting him hold her hand. She didn't want him to get the wrong impression or anything. She smiled softly as she crossed her arms, saying, "So, are you going to try to come back as a counselor next year?" she asked. She knew that she wanted to, and was planning on it. A part of her wanted him to say that he was going to; but, then that one side the one that made her pull away from him, that didn't want him to. |
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Post by axelj on Sept 21, 2008 9:28:48 GMT -5
"Nimm meine Hand,
wir fangen nochmal an.
Spring nicht.
Ich schrei in die Nacht für Dich,
lass mich nicht im Stich
Spring nicht"
Axel had actually forgotten that he still had ahold of Jac's hand until she pulled away. He smiled when she asked about coming back as a counselor. "Well, I'd like to, but I don't know if I'll have time yet," he answered. "I really have no idea what I'll be doing next summer and if I can come back. Something else may keep me away." He did want to come back as a counselor; but, with just signing the record deal, their manager said to prepare for a lot of promotional touring once the summer was out. They were also told it may be a very long tour, lasting into the summer. "How about you?" |
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Post by me08 on Sept 21, 2008 9:49:42 GMT -5
I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
"Oh, I'd like to come back as a couselor; but, I don't know if I will," she replied as she stepped over a large rock. She stumbled slightly, and then glared back at the rock. Looking forward again she said, "I don't actually know if I will, though." She looked up at the sky and could see the moon through the tree branches. She looked forward again, so she wouldn't stumble again. A light wind blew and she shivered a little. It was always pretty cool at night, with the lake and the beach being so close. |
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Post by axelj on Sept 21, 2008 10:07:06 GMT -5
"Nimm meine Hand,
wir fangen nochmal an.
Spring nicht.
Ich schrei in die Nacht für Dich,
lass mich nicht im Stich
Spring nicht"
"I think it'd be fun to come back as a counselor," Axel replied with a smile. Axel looked over at her just as she shivered from the wind. Axel wasn't cold himself, of course he was wearing a zip-up hoodie and a long sleeved shirt. He pulled off his hoodie and handed it to her with a smile. "Here, I don't need it." It was his favorite hoodie, his black and white striped one. He almost always wore it. The only other person he'd let borrow it was Gabbi; but, he didn't mind sharing it with Jac. |
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Post by me08 on Sept 21, 2008 11:27:36 GMT -5
I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
Jac hesitantly took the hoodie from him and slipped it on. She didn't zip it up, but put her hands in the pockets. It was a bit big on her, but it was warm. "Thanks," she said softly. She looked down at the ground as she walked, kicking a small rock as she went. She knew that Axel was in a band, the four members had gone to the camp every year that Jac had been there. She knew they were really good, and at the end of camp last year they were trying to get a record deal. She looked over at him with a small smile and said, "So, how'd the record deal thing turn out?" |
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Post by axelj on Sept 21, 2008 11:38:19 GMT -5
"Nimm meine Hand,
wir fangen nochmal an.
Spring nicht.
Ich schrei in die Nacht für Dich,
lass mich nicht im Stich
Spring nicht"
"Oh, uhm, the one we were trying to get last summer fell through," Axel replied. It had been a major disappointment at first, but things turned out better in the end. They signed with a bigger label and were going to put out two CDs at once, an English album and a German album. "But just before the end of the school term we signed with a different label. It's bigger than the one from last summer. We've got two albums we're working on putting out." He smiled as he talked about the record deal. Usually anything to do with the band could make him smile. The band was a major part of his life, and the two members who weren't really his family were his family. "We ended up not signing with the other label because they wanted us to 'change our look' to something more 'in'." Together the boys had decided that if they were asked to change anything about themselves, they'd walk away; because they didn't think losing themselves was worth a record deal. |
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Post by me08 on Sept 21, 2008 11:50:44 GMT -5
I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
Jac listened as Axel talked happily about the new record deal and finally signing with a label. His smile was bright and Jac almost let her admit that he looked extremely cute when he smiled like that. "That's great that you finally found a label," she said smiling at him. His good mood and positve energy was seemingly contagious. His happiness seemed to radiate from him, and it made Jac smile as well. They walked in silence for a little while; and, as they did, Jac noticed how close they were to each other. It made her stomach clench slightly and she felt...nervous was the only way she could explain it. She frowned slightly trying to push the feeling aside. She didn't like it. She refused to admit that she really did like him; that would give him too much power over her. But, she really did like him. Her mind was spinning with so many thoughts, it almost made her dizzy. She quickly smiled and looked at him. "Not that this hasn't been fun, but I really should get back to the dorms. I'm supposed to meet someone," she lied. She wasn't really supposed to meet someone, but she felt that she had to get out of there. |
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Post by axelj on Sept 21, 2008 11:57:17 GMT -5
"Nimm meine Hand,
wir fangen nochmal an.
Spring nicht.
Ich schrei in die Nacht für Dich,
lass mich nicht im Stich
Spring nicht"
Axel watched Jac out of the corner of his eye as they walked in silence. He watched as her expression changed, small at first; but, then she was frowning. He was about to ask her what was wrong when she smiled up at him, saying she had to go meet someone at the dorms. "Oh, alright," he said, smiling back. He couldn't help but wonder what had made her suddenly upset and want to leave. Was it something he'd said or done? "So, I'll see you around?" he said, more as a question than a statement. He hoped she wanted to talk to him again, because he knew he wanted to talk to her. |
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Post by me08 on Sept 21, 2008 12:09:11 GMT -5
I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
"You might," she replied with a shrug. She smiled at him. "Well, uh, bye." She waved and rushed off, forgetting she had his jacket on. She was headed for the girls' dorms and just hoped that one of her friends would be there so she could talk to someone about how...scared she was of what was going on between her and Axel. |
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